Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Theory of current interest

I don’t know and don’t want to become a scholar of philosophy but slowly I am gathering interest in the same. I don’t to become Elsworth Toohey from Fountainhead or Bertram Scudder from Atlas Shrugged either.

 

The futility of blabbering or enforcing some thing that sounds reasonable is one more way how people can get to make their lives a little bit more valuable. I believe in the theory of current interest. I have no particular idea as to whether the thing has been preached or not. I believe in whatever I am currently doing if it is satisfactory and there is no need to follow a common procedure even though it is breaking you every day routine  you can let go of your rules .

 

Suppose you cannot afford a house , but somebody is renting out a house for some amount and you pay it and get to use it ( may be you will not be able to make any architectural changes to it  , or not be able to get some extra connections here and there and not start a garden out there ) Most people wont even think about living a proper life while in rental mode. They will treat it as a second home and forget the fact that whatever time they have spent in there is what they will never be able to live again.

 

Gathering inertia, getting afraid of having to start again is some thing most of us afraid of and in the process we don’t venture out, we don’t do the best we can and we stop living. Most of us , who come from small cities to the bigger ones , realize with time that the process is a never ending one and one will never be able to taste it all in one lifetime. 

 

If you believe in living in the current most of your pain goes off. When you consider yourself to be lucky enough and the things you get are more than satisfactory, it will be much more easier for you

 

Yesterday I was on a train from Kolkata to Secunderabad. The whole journey cost us 40 hours, ( the train schedules have changed for Falaknuma , it starts are 11 in the morning instead of the 7:25 am written on the tickets, and there were further delays due to some bridge collapsing in Orissa ) .

Well, I did not find the journey tiring or boring. I sat there with a large number of comics, books, laptop with movies and my ipod, So a new life sprang from nothing. I enjoyed the 3 tier AC trip all the way. I did not repent it a bit, and the long journey was the only solid rest I have taken in the last one and half years.

 

There are a large number of places where you can directly apply this theory but if you are born of that attitude it will be easier for you to see that you are getting comfortable with the toughest of situations. You will soon find logic, sense and fun in every day.  This can be said to be the height of optimism , the practical use of optimism.  

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Its not like

You don’t want all your dreams to come true,

Because some of your dreams are nightmares too

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Loss of childhood

Every child knows there is a hundred to beat, some reach it and some do not.  But it is just that hundred and we know that we did  a 85 or a 95 or a 75 .

 

Had it been same for the rest of our lives, and not chasing infinity , none of us would had lost our childhood.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Like the dead body of time

Have become the dead body of time.  I am supposed to be doing good in life.

I have a good job, have enough fun with friends

Have done somewhat ok , if you were to ask me. But where is the charm of life, I have lost it in the process. Everything looks so meaning less. I am still the young guy who thinks that you can achieve anything.

 

But nope, that does not happen and the sooner you realize the better it is for you. I know where the limitations of the current man are , “the man that I am “

 

I need to ramble out myself out all the time. I need to find out the errors, I need to find out the problems . I discuss in my own mind the concepts that I have and then solve them alone.

 

But still at the end of the day why does material achievement mean so much. Within one lifetime I cannot be wasting time working like a robot everyday.

Wake up every morning, give your ass to the American ( Dollar power ) management, because, your family depends on you, because there is house in the making at your retirement,

There is more to be achieved. There is more to be done. I just cannot retire to the thought that “take the middle path and let yourself feel secure”

 

Time is just flying at a horrendous pace, the days of my life are going out , I am 25 and still to achieve a lot , but it looks like life has some other plans and things are not happening at all.

With the current pace I will be dead in my own steps too soon. The more you commit to one kind of work, the more expertise you grow in that and there is one point where you will have to decided, that enough, have learnt enough of this and it is time to move on,

 

For slower people, things take a lot of time. Some spend all their lives chasing a small dream, the dream that his peers would have set for him “ That senior in office, did this, did that etc “

Some just stoop down to other means to getting there. Many fly abroad, do mean labor just to make a mark somewhere some day.

I don’t know , whether this was the life I wanted to see when I was trying to grow up